mark here from Moncton. just read a posting on sanet about lust rejection and that was what I was going thru just the other day. I was triggered but did not give in to it. by the time I got home I was in a funk but could not understand why. I was distanced towards my wife which in turned cause her to distanced from me. it also caused her mind to travel wondering if I had a bad day. in times past that was one of her cues. if I started to become withdrawn she knew I was slipping.
in this case thou I was able to stay sober in the face of a trigger but it left me feeling rejected and with that came withdrawing inward. good to know. I will watch for this next time.
this weekend my wife’s whole family are coming and I still after many many years still struggle with feelings of shame when i’m around them. I know they have forgiven me for stepping out on my marriage and treat me as one of their own but I still struggle with that insane feeling. I will surrender it now to this group and my HP.
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