I’m trying to get into the habit of self appraisal. Working the steps in everything and practicing inventorying my actions and feelings as they come up. When ever i’m feeling an emotion, especially negative ones, i need to do a spot check and surrender. Morning is when i usually do my writing but sometimes closer to the action is necessary. I’m prone to forgetting or glossing over stuff so the sooner the better so i don’t forget.
I’ve done a few reviews with previous sponsors and i’m working with a new one now. Step work is not so formal but more of a conversation though i do make notes and bring my journal to the conversation.
I’ve given up fighting mostly. Sometimes it’s hard when i have a disagreement. Some times it takes a while to figure out what’s wrong. When i’m able to identify and admit where i’m wrong, i can quickly move on without thinking [fantasizing] about the problem. Let go and let God.
When i come upon a lust problem , if i can’t give it to my Higher Power quickly, i can become afraid or want to try to enjoy the hit. Here surrender, prayer, journaling and calling may be necessary to relieve me of that insanity.
When i’m focused on the next right thing, God’s will for me, i’m pretty much at peace with serenity and a generous helping of joy thrown in. By doing a 10th step inventory on my continueing life, i can be free of the emotional baggage that keeps me away from my Higher Power.
And it’s important to promptly admit my wrongs so they don’t fester and grow out of proportion. Then i will want to bury then under lust so i won’t have to deal with them. More fear and insecurity. When i bring my wrongs and rights out into the open and deal with them promptly, i’m free. Give them to God and I’m free.
I’m Jack T and i’m a sexaholic.
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